Textures

I’ve always had this obsession with textures. I love touching everything and feeling everything…. I guess I am learning to also feel everything in another level; emotionally, physically, spiritually, and trying not to run away from it…. Same as when I touch something with my fingertips, I touch the deeper layers of my self and feel them with curiosity and an open mind… At least I try… A lot of things have been happening in my life lately, and if I look back, this cycle has been going on for four years…. I feel somehow a need for closure of some kind, maybe the death of something in me… I feel I need it… Death is so necessary to make space and be reborn… Many mixed emotions and many thoughts just brewing in the inside. But soul knows. My soul knows I am not my passing emotions and my thoughts. I am eternal. We all are. The gap between me and “me” is growing each day…. I can see clearly sometimes, others I am blinded once again…. For now, I will continue with my textures, the ones within, and the ones without…