Category: Poetry

I close my eyes.
Now I can see better.

Sparkles of past dreams
burnt away in the ashes
of the raging fire
of Time.

Goodbye.

Ideas of what should have been
desintegrate in what Is.

A broken heart.

A lingering tear.

A wound that becomes
the black hole of a universe
reabsorbed into its own darkness.

Can anything survive here?

Where will all this longing go?

Into the rivers of blood that stream down a body?

Into the whispers of the wind that caress the leaves?

Into the ashes of a dream that was once a raging fire?

Into the sparkle of light that shines on the sea?

Into the moon, stars, and eternity?

Into the deep crevices of a broken heart?

Where will all this longing go… when I die?

There’s an ideal that the body-mind wants to grasp and make real, but the Heart knows it won’t fill the Void.

The only thing that can bring true peace is to rest in the arms of the Beloved.

Can She hold me tight enough for me not to forget I am already Whole?

She loves so unconditionally that She lets go…

She waits patiently for the pleasures of the sensual world to lose their lustre.

Because She knows it’s all just a fleeting dream. Magic She creates. The great theatre of grasping, getting, and letting go.

Learning again and again how to take the next step; when all roads in the end lead to Her.

That Love will not be found anywhere else but in the eternity of Being One.

Jai Kālī Mā!

The stirrings of my desires take me to the ungratefulness of my present, longing for something I don’t have, and can’t have.

I am not content, I am not in peace, right now.

And still, You embrace me and hold me tight, waiting patiently for the moment I remember You, remember Me, again.

This unconditional Love that You give me, sometimes makes me angry, because I can’t accept or believe I am lovable to that degree.

But You stay here with me.

In every tortuous winding of my path.

You collect every tear and swallow it, and You regenerate Life through the rain that will grow flowers in my chest again.

Even when I am blinded by my own illusions, You stand firmly in my Heart.

I can never escape You.

I can just learn to find myself once more, in Your arms.

It’s all You; the forgetting and remembering the whispers of Life.

Jai Mā!

One life is untangling while one is still tied to a noose of expectations.

What the heart longs for must be a secret for the eyes.

Lost in the fantasy; not yet a memory.

Lost in the idea of belonging in the arms of mystery.

Held by the thread of desire; touched by a trembling hand that holds on to a dying hope.

A rope that can save us, or pull us further down the hole.

Until we are out of breath…

Until the death of a part that cannot sustain the whole.

Bleeding into the memories of other times, other worlds…

I’m just another body decaying under the stars.

A bottle of wine staring at me from the other side.

Where everything felt like a crumbling life, about to hit restart…

And then those eyes remind me where it all began…and where it all went to die.

The fire that blinds the mind let’s the heart speak at last…

I Am.