Journey To The Self – Viaje Hacia El Ser

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  • Aceptación Del Cambio Como Única Constante 


    A veces los cambios nos crean una tensión y fricción interior porque estamos demasiado anclados a la idea de lo que algo debería ser. No es el cambio en sí lo que provoca el caos, sino nuestra propia mente, nuestra propia percepción de la realidad. La única manera de poder estar en paz con el mundo y con nosotros mismos es a través de la aceptación de esa gran verdad que todos los maestros nos han dicho durante miles de años: que el cambio es la única constante. La aceptación y realización de ello no es un camino fácil, pero sí necesario. El yoga y la meditación nos dan las herramientas y la metodología para poder reconocer las causas de nuestro sufrimiento a través de un estudio profundo de nuestro ser. Cuando hago asana, o cuando me siento a meditar y respiro, allí mismo se encuentra la clave de los ciclos universales de vida y muerte. La inhalación da paso a la exhalación, el movimiento da paso a la quietud, y en el silencio interno entre el casamiento de las polaridades encontramos la unión, y transmutamos la energía, alquimia espiritual. El camino del yoga no es un camino de flores, es un camino de penumbras y sombras, que sólo pueden existir porque en realidad, siempre hay una luz ilumándonos; porque somos la luz en sí. Sigo caminando, aprendiendo cada día, y me voy dando cuenta de que lo único que realmente importa es ser mejor persona a pesar de las circunstancias externas.

  • Yoga As A Path To Acceptance 

    Photo of me in Indonesia

    I am tired of reading messages about Yoga or Meditation being a path to being positive. Positivity is not a goal. Happiness just is. Happiness doesn’t mean positivity forever 100% of the time. Being happy means accepting when we are positive, when we are negative, when we are sad, when we are angry, when we are fearful, when we are frustrated, etc. Peace of mind doesn’t mean lying to everyone, especially to yourself, and saying “yes, I’m ok, everything is always good”. No. not everything feels always ‘good’ and no, it doesn’t have to, for you to be in peace. Peace of mind and happiness can only come from the acceptance of the darkness as part of the same coin as light is. The acceptance of this polarity is what sets us free. So if you wish to hear a postive message all the time to make you feel better about yourself or your life, I am not the person really to teach you. When I teach yoga or meditation I make it clear that you are enough as you are in that moment. Nothing else. I won’t tell you to smile or even to move on your mat if you only feel like staying in child’s pose and crying your heart out. I will set a space for you to feel free to be yourself, to journey through yourself, to learn from yourself. Yoga is a path of self discovery, not a path to positivity. There cannot be one thing without its contrary.

  • Sunset

     Photo by me in Indonesia

    And the sunset whispered to me, that nothing ever ends. That he lives in the time of no-time, painting colours in the air. That light and darkness are one and the same, each of them alive and dead… all words for ‘change’.

  • Into the Unknown 

      Photo of me and Shiva in Indonesia

    Life has been such a rollercoaster lately…. And for the first time ever I feel I am actually learning the lesson of letting go of control. My life right now is being held by two very thin threads, two very different and opposite options are awaiting my final choice. Should I stay or should I go? My heart is telling me one thing, my brain another one. I have no control over the outcome and I am learning to live with the fear of the unknown. Life doesn’t work out the way we planned it… it always has some lesson hiding behind the shadow waiting to be revealed. And this is so necessary for growth, I know. It’s not the first time in my life that I work really hard for something just to lose it all…. I am not afraid of losing it all again, it’s not that…. It’s the fact that I do not know where to go from here, where I thought I was home. Another great illusion, because home really is where our heart is, not a physical place…. So right now I am sitting with all my fear, my anger, with betrayal and a broken heart, just breathing and trying to listen to the voice within me that always knows what to do…. I don’t know where I will be tomorrow, or where my life will take me from here, but I do know one thing and one thing only, wherever I am, I must be in peace with my decision, and for that to happen, I will always follow my heart no matter how much material things get lost in the way. Things are just things, but having a good and kind heart with no regrets is all I ever want.

  • Textures

      Photo by me in Indonesia

    I’ve always had this obsession with textures. I love touching everything and feeling everything…. I guess I am learning to also feel everything in another level; emotionally, physically, spiritually, and trying not to run away from it…. Same as when I touch something with my fingertips, I touch the deeper layers of my self and feel them with curiosity and an open mind… At least I try… A lot of things have been happening in my life lately, and if I look back, this cycle has been going on for four years…. I feel somehow a need for closure of some kind, maybe the death of something in me… I feel I need it… Death is so necessary to make space and be reborn… Many mixed emotions and many thoughts just brewing in the inside. But soul knows. My soul knows I am not my passing emotions and my thoughts. I am eternal. We all are. The gap between me and “me” is growing each day…. I can see clearly sometimes, others I am blinded once again…. For now, I will continue with my textures, the ones within, and the ones without…