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 Photo by me in Vietnam

I am realising more and more how things just ARE. • I have been on this yogic journey to the self for 10 years or more, and I truly believe the practice is only opening up to me now. • I had a moment yesterday where I suddenly ‘understood’ something I was trying not to see for whatever reason. • Change happens, that we all know. • Change IS the only constant AND base of existence. • But change cannot be controlled. • Change cannot be trained to give you what you want. • We cannot change the world, or change people, or change situations. • We can only control our own minds, our own reactions, perspectives, beliefs and ways of seeing. • Change will always find a way to help us change our ways of being. • We don’t need to control it, guide it, or fear it. • This is the simplest and most complicated thing in the world for me: we just have to BE. • If we truly learn and practice just being, change will work its magic. • LIFE will always guide us. • We co-create reality with this. • By acceptance and practice of what is, we open the door to Eternity. •••

••• Photo by Hinton Faram •••

How could I explain that lately I’ve been feeling so many emotions, but at the same time I feel I cannot feel enough? • I can’t identify with them, and I fear I lose part of my…self? • These thoughts have been haunting me, because once again, I am trying to grasp with my mind something that is out of its reach. • Also, I’ve been practising for many months, maybe years now, I don’t know, how to detach myself from anything that is not permanent. So I’ve been observing… and falling into my own patterns again and again. But this time I was observing. • What they say is true, it’s all about learning at your own pace, your own process must unfold. It might take a day, years, lives… Now I get it. • I will just keep observing and learning and maybe one day, I won’t need to fall again to know.

 Photo by me in Vietnam

Sometimes we find ourselves in situations where anger, rage, regret, sadness, darkness, takes over. It might be produced by an emotional or physical trigger, and sometimes, even when the situation is over, the dark feeling lingers around. Just as if you wake up from a nightmare but you still feel the fear or pain you were feeling while asleep. • When I do find myself in these situations I imagine myself like a dragon spitting fire, super enraged and hungry, haha, and that image just instantly reminds me to breathe. Breathe air, not fire. Transmute fire into air. Calm down. • Sometimes it works, sometimes I flow with my dragon archetype and just burn things down. Later, I deal with the consequences of course, and that’s how I learn… ••• The thing is, practice is the only secret. The more I practice, the faster I catch myself, and the less things I burn. • Just breathe. •••

  Photo of me by Hinton Faram

Sometimes the only thing we can do is sit down and stay with whatever feelings arrive. Stay. Breathe. Stay. Let go. • Last night we had one of those moments, where nothing could be done for a situation we created ourselves, and there we were, sitting looking at each other and acknowledging one by one that nothing could be done in this moment, only to be and let go! • We breathe, we pass the uncomfort, the anger, the stress, the ‘what ifs’ and we wait patiently for our next move. • We like to call it our Zen moments of surrender amidst chaos. • Learning each day where my patterns take me. Sometimes it is really annoying to fall and fall again in the same ones, even if I am observing them! I feel a great magnetic attraction to falling back into past patterns. This is my constant practice. Not to fall back into the old, but to welcome something new, something that makes me grow and learn more. Every. Single. Day. • Letting go. •••

 Photo of me by Hinton Faram

•There is no better moment than Now, even if right now your situation isn’t idyllic, there is only Now, and if you weren’t here and now with your “good” or “bad” moment, you aren’t anywhere at all. •We are where our consciousness is. Energy flows where attention goes. This doesn’t mean that all the myriad of infinite possibilities don’t exist at the same time, it’s just that your “energy” is here, not somewhere else. • If we truly grasp this simple and complex reality, why then do we look for happiness somewhere other than Here and Now? Yes, those other “happy moments” might exist somewhere else, just like the infinite possibilities, but always, and forever, happiness will only be revealed in This Instant. This Moment. Here and Now. • I love love love master Dogen’s way of saying it, and I have to remind myself of it every single day: “If you cannot find the truth right where you are, where else do you expect to find it?” ••••