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 Photo by me in Vietnam

🌲Last night Mercury went retrograde, and so am I also going on a journey to the Underworld. 🌲I am travelling inwards, at the same time as my outer reality is travelling outwards. 🌲Finding stillness in chaos is the real deal for me. 🌲Finding the space between inhalation and exhalation when everything around you screams movement, and change, and cycles, and death… Death and rebirth, that is. 🌲The messages I am receiving is to look myself in the mirror of life and feel gratitude for all. For all that is. 🌲Only through acceptance of all my parts can I then feel compassion for the rest of the world. 🌲My job during this inward-outward journey, until October and its new beginnings and projects, is to learn and observe. 🌲To wait before responding and acting, and only then doing so from a place of sacral wisdom deeply rooted in my soul. 🌲Intuition is key. 🌲I must listen to that voice within that guides me through all my choices. 🌲It’s not my mind, or heart. It is Soul, Spirit, the part of me that isn’t really a part, but the Whole through which all parts of me, and all parts of existence, stem.

Photo of me by Hinton Faram

Paradoxes of life…. When you stop looking, you find. When you stop rationalising too much, you get the answers you were thinking about. When you stop worrying, everything falls into place. When you are thinking of the past or the future, you are not really living anything. When you are afraid of situations, you attract them to you as lessons….. So, why is it difficult to understand that we can be extroverted and introverted at the same time? Or that we can guide our lives through our feelings AND our thoughts? Or that all religions are the same, just different ways of exploring and explaining same concepts? Or that one day I wake up wanting to be who I am right now, and the next day wanting to change completely? Why? Well, because I think the essence of the Universe is in its paradoxes. In my opinion, there cannot be any type of existence if there is no imbalance somewhere; in vibration, frequency or light. Creation stems from chaos, I never want to forget that. Only through CHANGE and transformation and ENDLESS possibilities (maybe all at the same time) can life exist. If we ARE human and divine, why is it so difficult for us to accept that we can be whatever, whenever, without fear of it being judged by others?

 An offering of flower petals made by me

🌸A picture does not only speak more than a thousand words, but a thousand words for every pair of eyes that sets upon it.

🌸This is how we shape our reality.

🌸Your experience of the physical through your five sense organs will always be YOUR truth right here and right now.

🌸Same with everything else in life.

🌸What YOU feel, see, experience, act or Re-act to, is all YOURS and only yours.

🌸Those small and insignificant moments of feeling, knowing, experiencing, are what creates YOUR life.

🌸So, if we can’t control external situations, what CAN we control?

🌸Our breath.

🌸We can control our breath.

🌸And through accessing this magical ‘trick’ we can then control how WE react to the outside world.

🌸Shape your life by shaping your present through conscious breathing and acting.

🌸No one said it is easy, but it is so worth it!

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 My altar

🔮 There is nothing more powerful than the Truth.

🔮 There is no one more powerful than the one who knows himself; who knows BEING himself is the only reason for being at all.

🔮 I am tired of being part of the problem. I am tired of somehow collaborating to the collective thought that you need to leave everything and go to faraway lands and travel and be a wanderlust and get lost and quit your job and find love… because only then you will be happy…

🔮 No. That is not the truth. At least, is that YOUR Truth?

🔮 If you cannot find happiness where you are right here, right now, you won’t find it by chasing it around.

🔮 Yes, maybe some people’s lives have led them to exotic destinations and to different jobs and lifestyles. That doesn’t mean that being here or there has anything to do with happiness.

🔮 Once the Truth is revealed to yourself, there is no turning back.

🔮 Your purpose in this life, and in any other lives is to BE yourself.

🔮 Your gift, in this life and in all other lives, is to be able to EXPERIENCE everything.

🔮 These are words from a person that has been chasing happiness around the world for many years, only to come to the conclusion that I never really had to go anywhere or do anything.

🔮 Happiness is here and now. Happiness is ready for you to accept it.

🔮 Love is here and now. Love is everywhere always.

🔮 I am here and now, I am that I am for eternity.

 Photo by me in Vietnam

How can my heart be so divided? It is breaking in tiny pieces for all that is happening in the world… crying and fighting to find a valid reason for things to be the way they are… and at the same time knowing that not-knowing is always going to be my answer. My heart is also full of love and gratitude for all that I am capable of experiencing in this lifetime. Today I witnessed how two people united their lives in marriage and I celebrated their love surrounded by the people that love them, and even more, surrounded by some of the most important people in my life who are right here, right now by my side. Today I am extremely grateful and happy, but I am also extremely sad and overwhelmed… I guess this gets me closer to the realisation that nothing is this or that, good or bad, happy or sad… Nothing is anything really unless attached to something. Because things just are. We just are. Life just is. And as I lay here in my bed thinking (which I shouldn’t really) I can only feel. And from feeling I peel the layers off to just being… My heart aches, and at the same time, my soul chooses LOVE above anything else. How could it choose anything else? How could I choose anything else but love, if love is the only thing there is?