Life has been such a rollercoaster lately…. And for the first time ever I feel I am actually learning the lesson of letting go of control. My life right now is being held by two very thin threads, two very different and oposite options are awating my final choice. Should I stay or should I go? My heart is telling me one thing, my brain another one. I have no control over the outcome and I am learning to live with the fear of the unknown. Life doesn’t work out the way we planned it… it always has some lesson hiding behind the shadow waiting to be revealed. And this is so necessary for growth, I know. It’s not the first time in my life that I work really hard for something just to lose it all…. I am not afraid of losing it all again, it’s not that…. It’s the fact that I do not know where to go from here, where I thought I was home. Another great illusion, because home really is where our heart is, not a physical place…. So right now I am sitting with all my fear, my anger, with betrayal and a broken heart, just breathing and trying to listen to the voice within me that always knows what to do…. I don’t know where I will be tomorrow, or where my life will take me from here, but I do know one thing and one thing only, wherever I am, I must be in peace with my decision, and for that to happen, I will always follow my heart no matter how much material things get lost in the way. Things are just things, but having a good and kind heart with no regrets is all I ever want.
Journey To The Self 